Before you read this post let me say that I am not a stalker and I hope that I don't sound crazy. My brain knows that my hubby isn't here and that he won't be back anytime soon and that when he does I will surely know he is coming. However, that doesn't seem to stop the other side of my brain from looking for him.
Living on an army post I see people in uniform walking around all day long past my house and nearly everywhere I go. It took awhile to get used to but by now should not be surprising. However since my hubby left I have found myself looking to see if any of the uniformed soldiers walking by might be him.
Soldiers all look similar when in uniform and I guess part of me keeps hoping that the soldier walking down the street will be my hubby and that he will be walking through our front door any minute instead of some stranger merely walking by on his way somewhere else. On occasion I have also run into soldiers who at a quick glance look very much like my hubby and I find my heart racing as I take a second look only to realize that it isn't him at all and that upon a closer look, the soldier standing there doesn't look like Hubby at all. What was I thinking? Why is my brain playing tricks on me?
Like I said I KNOW that he isn't here and he knows that I hate surprises so I know that I will know when he is coming home. But I can't help looking for him. Am I crazy?
When Alex was 2, sweet husband was in AIT and everytime we drove over to see him, of course he was wearing ACUs. Well Alex decided that Every man wearing ACUs was Papa.
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Haha yeah but he was 2... at least you had a good excuse!
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